Insomnia

I.
Can't.
Sleep!!!

It is horrible, I am up for hours during the night. I get up and watch TV 1-2 hours each and every night. I haven't been this tired since Davis was a little bitty newborn. I can't nap in the day either because I have two children I need to take care of and because if I nap during the day I think that will make sleep even more elusive.

I am feeling nervous about this pregnancy because I have no symptoms really. I mean I do have insomnia and I am tired, but that is it. My boobs aren't even sore. I keep poking them but they just aren't sore. My first Dr. appt isn't until Mar. 13. I am just a normal pregnant person with this one, so I don't get to have early sonograms like last time with the RE.

My friend that just did IVF found out she is having twins- yay!! I am so excited for her! We are due within days of each other, although I am sure hers will come early since there are two of them. It is going to be so fun to go through pregnancy with her. We have known each other since 8th grade. Of course this is her first pregnancy so I want it all to be about her. I will just give advice or comments when asked.

Jason is hunting this weekend so it is me and the boys by ourselves. I keep trying to imagine when he goes hunting next year I will have three little ones at home with me-- whew, makes me tired just thinking about it. But I can't wait!!! I am getting soooooo excited about this pregnancy

Told the parents

They were shocked to say the least, but excited! They could not understand how it took so long and we went through so much with the other two and this one just happened.

I am waiting to tell friends until after the first sonogram-just in case.

But I am really getting excited! Life is going to be so crazy for the first year or so I am sure, but we will get through it. All I can think about is how much fun we are going to have.

I secretly wanted this to happen, never in a million years did I think that it would but I really wanted an "oops" third child.

I am beat today- so tired and sooooo thirsty. I have probably had a gallon of water today.

Davis' phe was low today for the second week in a row. It was 0.9, so we have changed the recipe-- less of the PKU formula so maybe it will be a little easier on his tummy.

Well- good night- it is 9pm and I am tired so I am going to bed...

I am scared to tell my Mom

I feel like I am 15 and unmarried and knocked up, I am really nervous to tell my Mom.
I mean it is silly to feel this way. I am happily married, can take care of 3 children financially, have a house (although we probably need to move to a 4brm house)--but still I can't help it- I feel nervous.

I am sure they are going to wonder why in the world we would let this happen having just had a child with PKU. But here is the way I look at it... first there is a one in four chance this child will have PKU and a 3 in 4 chance it WILL NOT. So odds are in our favor there- but if he/she does have PKU then that will give Davis someone to commiserate with. I have read lots of stories that adults with PKU wished they had a sibling with it as well to go through it with.

I will feel bad for this child if it has PKU, but I will feel bad for Davis if it doesn't. He will be the only one with the different diet. I guess there is no sense of worrying about it now- at this point it either has it or it doesn't.

Still in SHOCK! I feel hungover today. I am going to make myself go for a walk when Davis wakes up. Literally I could sit on the couch all day. I didn't sleep well last night though. I went to bed at 10pm, woke up-wide awake at 11:30. Got up and watched The Lakehouse until about 1:30am. Fell asleep around 2am. Davis woke up at 3am, went in and re-swaddled him and stuck his paci in his mouth. Then I couldn't fall back asleep. I think I finally went back to sleep around 4:30am, then up at 7am-Whew-
Guess I better get used to getting up in the night again. Davis started sleeping through the night about 8-9 weeks, so hopefully this little one will do the same...

February 19- Deja Vu

So last year on February 19, our 8th wedding anniversary, we tested positive with Davis.

Today on February 19, our 9th wedding anniversary, we TESTED POSITIVE WITH OUR THIRD CHILD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holy Shit is all I can say.

Eighteen months to get pregnant with Garrett.
Two years plus IVF to get pregnant with Davis.
One month to get pregnant with the third.

Were we trying? Not really- but not preventing- who would have thought after all we had been through to have our two boys that we would get pregnant so easily.

Davis and the baby will be ONE year apart. I am due October 28. I was due on Oct 31 with Davis. I am living a deja vu!!!

Four Months Old

Well Davis turned four months yesterday (will post picture as soon as I download of camera). What a crazy four months it has been...

Things he can do:
Roll from stomach to back
Giggle
Suck on hands
Grab and hold on to things
Sleeps through the night
Can bring the house down with his screams
Track you with his eyes all the way across the house

I swear I think he is getting teeth. Everyone thinks I am crazy, but when he is in one of his full on screaming fits you can see two little slits on the bottom gum. I bet within a month he is cutting teeth... Maybe that explains the grouchiness-- LOL

We went to the Ped today. He weighed 14lbs 10oz (50%) and was 25 3/4 inches (75%)and he has a big noggin-(89%). We will not be starting food yet. That will probably be next month. The PKU doctor is in charge of his food and food schedule and we go to clinic next month so I am assuming that is when they will give us the go ahead.

I am participating in an event called Texas Tough that benefits Children's Hospital and specifically the PKU dept. It is a run, bike and swim event held on different days throughout the year. The run (5K) is coming up in March. I have already raised $2500 for the PKU dept. Team PKU's goal is $50,000. I feel so lucky to be part of such a great group!
It is nice to know that someone cares about your child! I met a girl, Sarah, down at the lab when he was first diagnosed. Her daughter is a couple of months older and also has PKU. She and her husband have hit the ground running with the diagnosis. They organized Team PKU for the 2008 Texas Tough bike event and raised $17,000. They have also formed the PKU Foundation. I feel very lucky to have met them. I think we will be close friends over the years to come

Whew-what a difference a week makes

Phe level this week.... 4.9, so within range-- yippee!
It made me so excited to hear this after having two weeks of high level! And to top it off it was a beautiful day here (upper 60's) and sunny. What a great day It is funny how that little number can affect my whole outlook-this week it is good.

Tonight I am going out with some friends that I have met through Garrett's school. Margaritas are always fun :) and talking with new friends is too.

My friend, Suzanna, is doing her transfer today- so thoughts are with her! I am as anxious for her to get pregnant as I was myself. It is funny because my transfer was Feb. 13 last year so her due date will be very near Davis' birthday since he was born 2.5 weeks early. Oh- I so hope this is it for her!!!