I am just sitting here thinking back when we first started TTC. The first time and the second time. I was so full of hope, thinking I would be pregnant in no time.
"I will be one of the ones that gets pg right away" I thought- Boy was I wrong.
It took 15 cycles of trying for Garrett- That is a long time. We did not have insurance at that time so no testing or anything was done. We scheduled a trip to Mexico and two weeks later I found out I was pregnant.
We decided to start trying again in Dec. 2005. Once again I thought- "oh I have gotten pregnant before so it should be easy this time"- WRONG. Here we are two years later. At least this time I have some answers to why I can't get pg and a plan to get pg.
That leads me to where I am now- again I am thinking "oh I am going to start treatment soon, hopefully this month or January, so I will get pg right away"
I know from past experiences I shouldn't think this way, but it is so hard not to. Especially when trying something new. I feel as hopeful as I did way back in June 2002 when I quit taking the pill for the first time.
Tonight I take my last pill. I was on the pill for the lap and even though I could stop taking it at any point after the surgery, I decided to finish out the pack so Friday (when I have my post-op appt) will hopefully be CD 1 or 2 and maybe we can get started with treatment right away.
Here's to hope...
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Results of Lap
Well I had the lap done on Friday. I was pretty nervous going into it but DH and my Mom were there to support me. The nurse that prepped me was hilarious. She and I shared the same birthday. The anesthesiologist was great too. Once he put the "margarita" in my IV on the way to the OR I don't remember a thing. I woke up in the recovery room thinking I was Christmas shopping. Waking up was the strangest sensation!! My Mom and DH were able to come in pretty soon after I woke up- I was able to eat, drink and pee and was on my way home.
Now to what the lap revealed...
I do have endo- DH said that the Dr. said it was a pretty good case of it even though I don't have the usual symptoms. Dr was able to remove it.
There were some stringy things attached to various parts, he removed that as well
One ovary had a cyst and he removed that. He said this ovary is small and looks older than I am-- great.
The other ovary was attached to my pelvis due to the endo-so he fixed that.
What he seemed most concerned about was the finger-like things that are supposed to grab the egg from the ovary were damaged by the endo. They are supposed to be long and wispy, mine are short and stubby.
I have an appt next week to discuss options but Dr. told DH and Mom that he thinks we should generate alot of eggs to give the "fingers" more opportunity to pick one up. So I guess that means injectibles. Insurance will pay for IUI so I am sure we will do that as well.
After 2-3 months of that move on to IVF (if insurance covers---more on that later)
I guess if insurance doesn't cover it that will be the end of our journey.
Now about the insurance- they have "told" me on the phone all along that the DO NOT cover IVF. But I printed the benefits off the internet and there was a rider attached to the plan that covered IVF if the couple met certain criteria--- one being endometriosis. Seems pretty cut and dry to me right? Well they have been "researching" it for 3 weeks now. First they had to speak with the supervisor, then to the acct rep., now they are speaking with the legal dept. I guess I really threw them through the loop when I actually read the book and didn't just rely on what they "told" me. I am sure the legal dept is trying to figure a way out- hopefully they won't. I am going to call tomorrow and try to (nicely) demand an answer. I mean if they will cover IVF screw the IUI's--let's move straight to that!
Anyway I am recovering nicely from the surgery-- the gas is finally gone, hopefully the bloating will follow soon. The incisions are only slightly tender. Mentally I am both relieved and sad. On one hand at least I know what is causing the problems and I realize that in order for insurance to cover IVF I need this diagnosis. On the other hand I am sad-- what if this prevents me from having another baby. I mean I am VERY thankful for Garrett, but I don't feel my family is complete...
Now to what the lap revealed...
I do have endo- DH said that the Dr. said it was a pretty good case of it even though I don't have the usual symptoms. Dr was able to remove it.
There were some stringy things attached to various parts, he removed that as well
One ovary had a cyst and he removed that. He said this ovary is small and looks older than I am-- great.
The other ovary was attached to my pelvis due to the endo-so he fixed that.
What he seemed most concerned about was the finger-like things that are supposed to grab the egg from the ovary were damaged by the endo. They are supposed to be long and wispy, mine are short and stubby.
I have an appt next week to discuss options but Dr. told DH and Mom that he thinks we should generate alot of eggs to give the "fingers" more opportunity to pick one up. So I guess that means injectibles. Insurance will pay for IUI so I am sure we will do that as well.
After 2-3 months of that move on to IVF (if insurance covers---more on that later)
I guess if insurance doesn't cover it that will be the end of our journey.
Now about the insurance- they have "told" me on the phone all along that the DO NOT cover IVF. But I printed the benefits off the internet and there was a rider attached to the plan that covered IVF if the couple met certain criteria--- one being endometriosis. Seems pretty cut and dry to me right? Well they have been "researching" it for 3 weeks now. First they had to speak with the supervisor, then to the acct rep., now they are speaking with the legal dept. I guess I really threw them through the loop when I actually read the book and didn't just rely on what they "told" me. I am sure the legal dept is trying to figure a way out- hopefully they won't. I am going to call tomorrow and try to (nicely) demand an answer. I mean if they will cover IVF screw the IUI's--let's move straight to that!
Anyway I am recovering nicely from the surgery-- the gas is finally gone, hopefully the bloating will follow soon. The incisions are only slightly tender. Mentally I am both relieved and sad. On one hand at least I know what is causing the problems and I realize that in order for insurance to cover IVF I need this diagnosis. On the other hand I am sad-- what if this prevents me from having another baby. I mean I am VERY thankful for Garrett, but I don't feel my family is complete...
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Lap on Friday-pre op tomorrow
Well the big day has come-- the lap is on for Friday. I have to go in tomorrow morning for pre-op stuff. I am excited to get it over with-- Nervous though...
I have never had surgery.
Hopefully he will find some endo bc if so I am pretty sure insurance will cover IVF-woo hoo!
More tomorrow!
I have never had surgery.
Hopefully he will find some endo bc if so I am pretty sure insurance will cover IVF-woo hoo!
More tomorrow!
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Starting BCP today
What a weird feeling to be starting birth control pills after 2 YEARS!! We have decided to do the laparoscopy instead of starting with the injectibles because if I do have endo. then it would be a waste of money to do the injects. and IUI. So now the plan is to have the lap on Dec. 7 and then move forward with the inject. IUI (hopefully)-I guess depending on what they find during th lap. So that means there is NO chance of us getting KU in November and I guess December too--weird!
Oh well Jason keeps reminding me this is bringing us one step closer--I guess, feels more like 2 steps back.
On a lighter note, Garrett had the MOST fun EVER trick or treating last night. We went with two other 3 yr old boys and I have never seen them have so much fun. They were running from house to house, yelling and jumping. It was so cute! Of course this morning he wanted to do it all over again--
Now we are looking forward to Santa-- what a fun time of year for a kid!
Oh well Jason keeps reminding me this is bringing us one step closer--I guess, feels more like 2 steps back.
On a lighter note, Garrett had the MOST fun EVER trick or treating last night. We went with two other 3 yr old boys and I have never seen them have so much fun. They were running from house to house, yelling and jumping. It was so cute! Of course this morning he wanted to do it all over again--
Now we are looking forward to Santa-- what a fun time of year for a kid!
Friday, October 12, 2007
On hold...
Well looks like we are on hold for a few months, probably until at least January. DH changed jobs and does not get paid for 45 DAYS, so all of our money is going to go to pay bills etc...
That being said I ~may~ go ahead and do the laproscopy to check for endo. Insurance will cover this and at least this way I feel like I am being proactive.
Of course we are going to try au natural these next few months~who knows, stranger things have happened.
Next week is going to be very un-stressful and I am supposed to be Oing sometime next week- so maybe we will get lucky and it will happen on a TAB month. On Tuesday I am flying to New Orleans with my Mom-she sees a Dr. there and my Dad can't go with her, so, of course, I volunteered. We will only be there for the day, but we will get to eat some of that yummy Cajun food.
Then we leave early on Wednesday morning to go to Galveston with the Inlaws. We go to the beach with them every year in October and it is always a very welcome get-away. I am not taking my thermometer or anything. Feels very liberating!
I have decided I am not going to worry about TTC until January when (hopefully) we will start injects. and IUI's.
That being said I ~may~ go ahead and do the laproscopy to check for endo. Insurance will cover this and at least this way I feel like I am being proactive.
Of course we are going to try au natural these next few months~who knows, stranger things have happened.
Next week is going to be very un-stressful and I am supposed to be Oing sometime next week- so maybe we will get lucky and it will happen on a TAB month. On Tuesday I am flying to New Orleans with my Mom-she sees a Dr. there and my Dad can't go with her, so, of course, I volunteered. We will only be there for the day, but we will get to eat some of that yummy Cajun food.
Then we leave early on Wednesday morning to go to Galveston with the Inlaws. We go to the beach with them every year in October and it is always a very welcome get-away. I am not taking my thermometer or anything. Feels very liberating!
I have decided I am not going to worry about TTC until January when (hopefully) we will start injects. and IUI's.
Monday, October 8, 2007
Dr appt.
Well I met with a new RE. I liked him. We went over our whole history and he gave us some choices of what we can do:
1. Injectibles with IUI
2. Some injectibles and some Femara with IUI
3. Laproscopy to check for endometriosis
We chose to go with number 2 for two months and if nothing has happened by then we will do the surgery. Our plan is to do nothing for this month (maybe it will happen naturally?!?). Then call when AF comes, they will show me how to do the injects. I will alternate with a pill (Femara) and the injects. Then do a trigger shot, to trigger the egg to release and then do IUI. This choice is a little less aggressive than doing it all injectibles, but it is also about half the cost, since insurance doesn't cover the injects.
Good plan, liked the doctor-- hopefully we will be PG soon!!
1. Injectibles with IUI
2. Some injectibles and some Femara with IUI
3. Laproscopy to check for endometriosis
We chose to go with number 2 for two months and if nothing has happened by then we will do the surgery. Our plan is to do nothing for this month (maybe it will happen naturally?!?). Then call when AF comes, they will show me how to do the injects. I will alternate with a pill (Femara) and the injects. Then do a trigger shot, to trigger the egg to release and then do IUI. This choice is a little less aggressive than doing it all injectibles, but it is also about half the cost, since insurance doesn't cover the injects.
Good plan, liked the doctor-- hopefully we will be PG soon!!
Thursday, October 4, 2007
AF is here
Well--not pregnant. AF reared her ugly head on the 2nd. But I was expecting it because I had started spotting a couple of days before. BOO!
Anyway I have an appointment with the RE on Monday so I am looking forward to that.
I found out what my insurance actually covers. It covers 6 cycles of IUI and monitoring, which is less than what they initially told me but way better than what I had so I am pretty pleased. The downside is that they don't cover injectibles. But maybe the Dr. can prescribe a low dosage of them and they won't be too expensive. Or maybe he will go the Clomid/Femara route. I don't care, I just want to be as agressive as possible since we have almost been trying for 2 YEARS.
Garrett is great-says the funniest stuff! I just love him so much! He had pictures at his school yesterday so I am anxious to find out how they turned out.
On a sad note, we are going to have to put our cat, Lucas, to sleep tomorrow. He hasn't been eating for a month or so. I took him to the vet yesterday and found out he has Feline Aids and his liver is failing. So we have come to the decision to go ahead and put him to sleep, instead of watching him slowly starve to death. He has been a good cat, I am sure he will be the only one I will ever have that uses the toilet.
Hook em horns (UT vs OU is this weekend)
Anyway I have an appointment with the RE on Monday so I am looking forward to that.
I found out what my insurance actually covers. It covers 6 cycles of IUI and monitoring, which is less than what they initially told me but way better than what I had so I am pretty pleased. The downside is that they don't cover injectibles. But maybe the Dr. can prescribe a low dosage of them and they won't be too expensive. Or maybe he will go the Clomid/Femara route. I don't care, I just want to be as agressive as possible since we have almost been trying for 2 YEARS.
Garrett is great-says the funniest stuff! I just love him so much! He had pictures at his school yesterday so I am anxious to find out how they turned out.
On a sad note, we are going to have to put our cat, Lucas, to sleep tomorrow. He hasn't been eating for a month or so. I took him to the vet yesterday and found out he has Feline Aids and his liver is failing. So we have come to the decision to go ahead and put him to sleep, instead of watching him slowly starve to death. He has been a good cat, I am sure he will be the only one I will ever have that uses the toilet.
Hook em horns (UT vs OU is this weekend)
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